A Faith Story · A Motherhood Story

The Disappointment of Unmet Expectations

My husband and I are expecting our first baby any day now. In fact, we were convinced she was going to show up yesterday. This is not because it was her due date or due to any physical indicators. It was simply because both of us just had a feeling “in our gut” about August 30th. But yesterday came and went and our little one does not seem interested in hanging out with us just yet.

This morning I had such an overwhelming sense of disappointment. I’m only 38 weeks, so she has plenty of time to safely arrive. Statistics support that it will probably be another 3 weeks or so before she makes her grand entrance. But somehow I had a disappointment in this unmet expectation that was so deep it made me feel that she now wasn’t coming at all. I know that sounds absolutely crazy. But that’s how my heart felt. I wanted to sit and cry in that sadness and disappointment, regardless of its logic.

Over the past couple of days, Bryan and I had jokingly started singing “Come, little baby, come” (to the tune of “All Who Are Thirsty”) to our little one in hopes she would join us on the 30th. So it was humorous when we realized that we were singing “You’ll Come” in church today. But what was a funny turn of phrase really spoke something to my heart.

As we sang, “I have decided, I have resolved, To wait upon You, Lord” and “As surely as the sun will rise, You’ll come to us, Certain as the dawn appears”, my heart was encouraged. I know as well as anyone that science confidently assures me that my baby girl will eventually come. She and my body will do what they were created to do and she will indeed come out into the world. But what this song and this morning’s worship reminded me is that just as I have that scientific assurance about her birth, I have the solid assurance from God’s word that indeed He will come. He will answer His promises. He will show His glory. He will meet me where I am. He will come.

I think we often feel a spiritual disappointment like the one I felt this morning. We have an expectation – maybe logical, maybe not – that God will show up in a certain way and at a certain time. There’s nothing wrong with hopes and expectations. But at the moment that we forget the assurance that He will in fact come, we’ve gone off track and discouragement sets in. But stopping to remember His word, His promises, His truth can help us remember that He is faithful. To remember that if we will just wait on Him and His perfection we can be assured that just as the sun will rise He will come!

Let us acknowledge the Lord;
    let us press on to acknowledge him.
As surely as the sun rises,
    he will appear;
he will come to us like the winter rains,
    like the spring rains that water the earth.

— Hosea 6:3

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